Last night,after completing my accounts assignment,I snuggled and tucked myself into bed with heavy eyes because of just two hours of sleep the night before.I immediately fell into a deep slumber when I had this very pleasant dream.
I was in a ballroom,wearing the most exquisite and elegant gown I have ever laid eyes upon.Then,like one of those fairytales and knight in shining armour sort of a thing,a soigne and charming lad approached me and asked me to dance.I accepted with a humble inward smile and blushed a little.Hand in hand we danced across the ballroom,and all the other girls were looking at me with a jealous sneer.I felt like the most beautiful girl in the world.The night in my dream was a prom night in high school.
Ignore the irrelevance,the reason why I have cited this dream out is because I wanted to highlight the tense."It was a prom night".Was!..Yes,I have used the past tense because prom nights are for high school and college kids.Not for a 23 year old,graduated-a-year-and-a-half-ago person!College days were so way back in the past.That was when I was acquainted with one frantic truth..that was..maybe I'm growing old!!
I remember ,when i was in school way back in the year 2000,the pop singer Britney Spears had just released her first single Baby One More Time.She was just sixteen at that time but as a kid,I portrayed her as someone who was so much grown up and elder to me,or simply put-an adult.
But over the course of the past decade,things have changed.Now I am the grown up,and they are the minors.Under-aged!Nowadays,be it in newspapers or televisions,everywhere you'll see.."..the 16 year old Miley cyrus...17 year old Justin Bieber...20 year old Taylor Swift etc etc".It was a shocking moment when I learnt that Rihanna was of my age.She really looked like she's 26 or at least that is what my pre conceived notion tells me!!It's like I'm moving ahead and the rest of the world is lagging behind.It was then that it occured to me..maybe I'm growing old.
There was a time when all my girlfriends used to call me up for a game of "inkoibah" or cycling or climbing trees in our backyard.Now,most of them hardly called me and even if they did,it's because they wanted to discuss about their work,husbands,kids,boyfriends,break ups and the list goes on.And when they do,I am expected to listen,analyse and give them advice like an "adult".And when I don't, I am not a good friend,and if I tell them my honest opinion,they will take it as I'm being mean.But that's okay,really.They're just girls and I love my friends the way they are.But it also made me realize the fact that I'm not 16 anymore.Maybe that is the reason why the question,"How old are you?" have become one of life's toughest question to tackle.
Once I asked a friend why she never celebrated her birthdays.Birthdays never evoked any special feelings for her,in fact,it made her bitter.I have so often heard the quoted cliches like "Wisdom comes with age" or "dont worry..life begins at the age of 40".But c'mon,who does'nt like to be young and carefree,when your only worries were whether you'll get a barbie doll for Christmas rather than worrying about your campus placements with high pressure and expectations from everyone.
But,on the contrary,although I'm not really an embracer of aging and getting old,no matter what people say and how much you fret about it-it is inevitable.It's a part of life in which you have absolutely no control.So,.instead of whingeing and whining about it,the wise thing to do is to celebrate that you have lived this long.Count your blessings,ur friends,family,the priviledges you got which others don't.Try to see the beauty of those grey hair and the wisdom beneath those wrinkled faces.After all,turning 70 and going past the ages of wearing those stiletto shoes might not be so bad,it means you won't have to do your laundry so often:).
"The idea is to die young,as late as possible".:)
Nana this is just so beautifully written! couldn't stop reading with my heavy eyes:-)
ReplyDeletethanks u dawngte
ReplyDeleteNanananaaaaaaaa!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI, the knight come to take you as my queen. LOL
ReplyDeletebtw Alvina i va ang ve?? Nana??
I didn't know you blog :) Nice post btw! I still remember what you told me when we were kids (I mean errrrm while we were in high school). You said you'd rather die young than have wrinkles and live long....you hated aging that much I guess ^_^
ReplyDeletethanks kim.il survive:)
DeleteYou did it again.. Nanaaaa! Your footnote is not bad :)
ReplyDeletethanks everyone!
ReplyDeleteNanaaanaaaanaaanaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteOnce again.. I love d greys u got at 23..:-P
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